Before I started sharing and creating content for in the Ra, I was really ashamed, scary looking and hiding from the world.
It wasn’t until my lovely family pulled me back to Adelaide to show me unconditional love that I started to see beyond this mask when I looked in the mirror.
Bit by bit I began to show my closest friends my face, and even though some couldn’t recognise me at first, and gave me an initial look of shock horror, after a few minutes all they could see was me. My anxiety about them not loving me was gone, and I can’t tell you how healing that was.
After my second trip back home I started my 27 day juice fast and mustered up the courage to share it with you, and your support has been incredibly healing too, thank you.
In the last two weeks I toddled off there again. Though, this time I timed out of social media too, I stopped talking to you and I’ve gotta say, I’ve missed you.
It seems that every time I reach an emotional standstill, my skin improvements also plateau and I’ve got to go back home to help myself move forward. It strips me out of my environment, upsets my routine and gives the a fresh perspective.
Changing my enironment helps me love, learn, and learn to love at the next level.
I know you understand this journey, you’re in it, both with me and privately. You get it. That sometimes we’re in a giving state, feeling full and ready to tackle anything. Other times it’s all too much and our energy needs to be taken for ourselves. That’s why I know you understand my absence.
Besides, this “space” has given me so much, it’s given me the silence to listen to my soul (as silly as that may sound), to move past the noise. And best of all, to stop using my skin as an excuse not to do things I dream of, because the truth is, I’m scared.
Last year, my intuition told me to travel, but I told myself I had to wait because my skin needed to be better. That was the 27 April 2016! The irony is my skin was better then, than it is now.
But my mindset changed – my eagerness to live now and not wait, has changed. I believe life gets better when we make it better, our skin gets better when we make it it better, but to get better we need to take a leap, or many leaps as my case may be.
This change also means a new direction (or slight pivot) for in the Ra. With less focus on food (although that’s still of major importance) and more focus on mindset – loving the skin we’re in and how that is it’s own journey too.
That’s all for today, but expect more to come. And FYI, I’ve just booked my tickets to leave this Saturday – that’s in two days time! Wish me luck. 😉
I love you guys! With a special thanks to those who messaged me and kept the conversation going in my absence, it means a lot.
Here’s to our next chapter!
xx Jess
PS. I may not be able to always offer you rigid consistency, but what I do promise is to always give fully and to speak my truth. x